So im here, sitting in history next to my friend, Michael, and talking about random shit. I havent been updating lately bc of smt at home. I know its wrong to eavesdrop on people but my mom and godmother were talking about me. Then they brought my Biological dad into it. I just cant handle what they were saying. They said i was JUST like my dad, a lair, a theief.. and much more. Ive thought abt my life. Thinking about thanksgivng in 2 days. Im normal exicted for crap like that, but... it just isnt the same. ive been wanting to cry myself to sleep, knowing what i now know. I really didnt want anyone to know about this. But im feeling better just typing it all out on this. I might just convice myself that things arnt that bad as they seem they are. but my stepdad has been being more distant lately and it all just feels like its falling apart. I know my anxiteys getting worse with each passing minute. ive probably had 20 or 21 anxitey attacks in the past week. Idk. I hope everyone who sees this gets to know that im probally going to be absent for a while. With my best intentsions, CrybabyRaven
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